TOPPER (part 4) I gave KCET again , but this time , I studied so much, studied for weeks . it didn't feel easy as it used to feel back then . studying is harder now.Thats the lowest low I ever felt in my 18 years . I should be easy after I studied for it , but it was all different, I was different how I pressurized myself , it was different how I felt bad about myself . I know I'm going to get an average rank , not even close to the rank I got earlier. I cannot do anything about it other than cry or accept ! But This time , I accept it I'm not a topper anymore, neither I'm being called so . Now people know I'm not a topper Even my parents know I'm not a topper anymore. But yeah , I'm healthy, I'm confident , I'm happy , I'm content. AGAIN. I'm not delusional anymore, I got the clarity I needed . I'm mature now . I know" a single piece of paper can't decide my future ". Yet , it would have been different, if I learnt it to accept easily and not a hard way ! What do u think?
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